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Not a Wasted Moment

A new year.

I'm not really into resolutions. Never really have been into them. Mainly because I usually am awful at them. Changing my life for Lent is hard enough, but a whole year?! Come on! I keep thinking about where I was at this time last year.  Well, not literally.  I was in the Holy Land so it is kinda hard to top that.  At this time last year, I had a huge prayer.

And it wasn't answered in 2014, or 2013, or 2012...

Frankly, I've had this prayer for as long as I can remember.

What I wanted did not happen. So it begs the question, "Was this past year a waste?"

No. Not at all.

Some of my highlights this past year included:

  • Traveling the Holy Land
  • Completed another semester of seminary
  • Became a certified candidate for ministry
  • Progressed to the next level of ordination
  • Went on a mission trip with the best middle school students around
  • Visited family and friends
  • Gained more responsibility and opportunities at work
  • Wrote a TON of papers
  • Drank A LOT of coffee 
  • Met weekly with a dear friend that challenged me in all areas of my life
  • Laughed a lot 

But I also cried a lot.
I got angry a lot.
I was confused.

Was this year worth all the heartache? Yes, this year was worth it, but it was a hard one, nonetheless.  So as I look at this past year, and as this new year is staring me in the face, I pray I don't drag my bitterness, my envy, my jealousy, or my anger into this new year. I can't let go of the heartache. It will always be there until this prayer is answered.  I just don't want all that other stuff like bitterness to rule 2015. I often let it get the best of me in 2014 and I don't want to live another year like that. I don't want to be so close to losing all hope and all faith because I really do believe God is good and that God has a plan.  In 2015, I want to have more trust, more hope, and more faith than ever before and I can tell you, it is going to be tough. It will be challenging, but I want it. I know I need it.

I don't know what 2015 holds for me. I know what I want. I know what I pray for every single day. But I know it doesn't mean I'll even have it answered in 2015. I pray that even if 2015 doesn't turn out the way I want it to, it will not be wasted time. All I have to do is think for a moment about 2014 and realize that no moment was wasted.

Here's to 2015.  Here is to trust, to hope, and to faith.


  1. Hello Scott and Reagan. So good to know you through your profile on the blogger. I am glad to know that you are Associate Youth Director. I am also glad to stop by your blog post. very interesting to go through your post letting your blog readers know that 2014 was not a waste. Very positive way of looking the past and trusting and hoping and having faith to greet 2015. Well I am from Mumbai, India the other part of the world but it is amazing to get connected to God's people around the globe. I am in the PASTORAL MINISTRY for last 35yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the broken hearted. We also encourage young and adults from the West to come to Mumbai on a short / long term missions trip to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come to Mumbai with your friends to work with us during your vacation time. I am sure you will have a life changing experience. It will be also great to see that young people from your church come and work with us during their vacation time. My email id is: dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot0jcom and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richest blessings on you both.


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